The truth hurts
Apr. 11th, 2007 06:03 pm![[personal profile]](http://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
koreeSo... it turns out that Q. does actually have an intrest in dating, but, seeing that he took a vow for his faith, that's out of the question. I've never felt this torn before.
I respect his decision, I wish I could say I had that kind of dedication, I do. A part of me wanted to ask if that was just the absolute final verdit, book's closed, the end, "I'm only allowed to socialize, date, and/or marry within my own faith, sorry.", but I couldn't put that kind of pressure on him for something like that. I don't want that kind of weight on my concience. He was worried I'd take it personal, and the thing of it is, I told him that I didn't, and I don't, but the fact that it's not personal just hurts worse, it makes it that much more frustrating. I just wish that I had been better prepared for it. I know nothing about his religious-beliefs besides the very bare, bare basics, but I had a gut feeling this was coming. It didn't do much good though.
I don't feel like being online, I don't feel like talking to anyone on the phone. I just don't know if I'm going to be around tonight guys, sorry.
I respect his decision, I wish I could say I had that kind of dedication, I do. A part of me wanted to ask if that was just the absolute final verdit, book's closed, the end, "I'm only allowed to socialize, date, and/or marry within my own faith, sorry.", but I couldn't put that kind of pressure on him for something like that. I don't want that kind of weight on my concience. He was worried I'd take it personal, and the thing of it is, I told him that I didn't, and I don't, but the fact that it's not personal just hurts worse, it makes it that much more frustrating. I just wish that I had been better prepared for it. I know nothing about his religious-beliefs besides the very bare, bare basics, but I had a gut feeling this was coming. It didn't do much good though.
I don't feel like being online, I don't feel like talking to anyone on the phone. I just don't know if I'm going to be around tonight guys, sorry.
